Shunning is very dehumanizing. It's been 22 years and I haven't overcome it.
However now I have real friends. People that I know will never leave me.
You do realize that you don't have any true friends in the organization don't you? All of those relationships are entirely conditional. They'll all abandon you in a heartbeat without even knowing the reason if they disfellowship you. It usually happens at the time you need friends the most.